YAY

finally passed my road test!! super happy to have extra freedom now

OMG

as if all my favourite bands are doing a tour together, couldn't be more excited. Hopefully taking a trip out to Fargo to see them!! 

Go Ask Alice

Finally finished reading Go Ask Alice. Really enjoyed it and i wish it would never end.. speaking of the ending i'm not impressed. The ending is forsure not what I was expecting.. plus theres no follow up or real explanation as to why she died so it's really bugging me!! I've recently started reading HATE LIST, I'm enjoying it so far but I still have a lot left to read!

BLAHHHH

100% sick of the snow and the fact they never shovel the sidewalks to walking to school has become a challenge 

New Found Love

My favourite band has been citizen for a while. Mat kerekes is the lead singer and is so extremely talented it's unbelievable, I've recently discovered some of his solo stuff from before he was in a band and I must say it's some of the most beautiful music I've ever heard. 

MAN CRUSH

Steve Carey is probably my biggest celebrity crush. He plays drums in a band called The Color Morale! Check them out, pure talent mixed with some good looks never hurt. 

 

"All Our Bruised Bodies And The Whole Heart Shrinks"

*I DO NOT OWN THESE LYRICS/NOT MY LYRICS*

These lyrics are probably my favourite out there. The song is more of a required taste but these lyrics are just so twisted and beautiful and really make you think. This is some of La Disputes greatest work and I advise everyone reads these. 

So now tell me how your story goes. Have you ever suffered?

If so, did you get better or have you never quite recovered from it?
Did you find your lover laying in your bedroom with another and then
Did you let it hover over you and everything else well after the fact?

Show me all your bruises. I know everybody wears them.
They broadcast the pain-how you hurt, how you reacted.
Did cancer take your child? Did your father have a heart attack?
Have you had a moment forced the whole heart to grow or retract?

Or just shrink.
Does the heart shrink?
Tell me everything. Tell me everything you know.
Were you told as a child how cruel the whole world can be?
Did anybody ever tell you that?
Tell me what your purpose is? Who it was that put you here and why?
Did anybody really put you here at all?
And what of those necessities? Like how to cope with tragedy and pain?
Did anybody ever show you how?
When it hits will my heart burst or break or grow strong?
Is there really only one way to know now?

I’m not sure if I’m ready yet to find out the hard way
How strong I am. What I’m made of.
I’m not sure if I’m ready yet to walk through the fire.
I’m not sure I can handle it.
Do you think if the heart keeps on shrinking
One day there will be no heart at all?
And how long does it take?
Am I better off just bursting or breaking?
Because I don’t see my heart getting strong.

Tell your stories to me. Show your bruises.
Let’s see what humanity is capable of handling.

She lost her kid, only seven, to cancer.
She answered with faith in her god and carried on,
While he was attacked by his son and was stabbed in his stomach and his back and his arms.
He showed me scars.
82 years old, told me, “I still have my daughter and my wife. And I still have
My life and... my son.”

Tell me what your worst fears are. I bet they look a lot like mine.
Tell me what you think about when you can’t fall asleep at night.
Tell me that you’re struggling. Tell me that you’re scared. No,
Tell me that you’re terrified of life.
Tell me that it’s difficult to not think of death sometimes.
Tell me how you lost. Tell me how he left. Tell me how she left.
Tell me how you lost everything that you had.
Tell me that it ain’t ever coming back.
Tell me about God. Tell me about love.
Tell me that it’s all of the above.
Say you think of everything in fear.
I bet you’re not the only one does.

Everyone in the world comes at some point to suffering.
I wonder when I will. 

6 WORD MEMOIR

Celebrate life in a new way can mean a lot. This photo of me was taken on new years of 2012-2013 and in a weird way things will never be the same. Everyday is a new beginning and i think by looking back on things there's a lot to celebrate about and a lot in the future too look forward too. Do something new, be adventurous, outgoing, dangerous even, if it means a new experience why not?? People tend to not celebrate the little things in life and I've recently learned that i have a lot more fun when i do, even if its a little happy dance it makes things more fun and enjoyable 

AHHHHH

So i've recently been talking to someone who works and is very close friends with my favorite band CITIZEN. Things like this really excite me, He made the effort to message me and we've been talking about music, experiences and just day to day stuff. I hope this can kind of give me a leg up or connection when its time for to start looking for a job. It makes me happy that people who are busy and obviously higher up would take the time to actually want to get to know me. Although they are normal people as well i couldn't imagine how long it would take for them to reply to every fan that asked a question/gave them a comment, so in this case I feel very thankful!!

6 WORD MEMOIR

One of the biggest things in my life would have to be music. I try my best to attend as many local and big shows as possible. Recently I've been running merch for some friends and also capturing some really awesome pictures at the shows. I really do live for live music, nothing makes me more excited than attending a show. You get to dress up, meet up with new and old friends and get to be in a room surrounded with people who generally share the same passion as you. My biggest dream would be to get a job working around bands/music, I treat every show as experience towards my future. I really enjoy getting to meet the bands afterwards and talk to them about their day to day lives and the show and how they like the city ect.. things like this are what my life ultimately revolves around and I hope to make a living out of it soon.